Lots Has Happened

So a lot has happened since my last post. Started back at school for sixth form and thats going well. Lots of work but at least I like the subjects. Saw We Will Rock You at the theatre and went to London last weekend to see the sister who's living down there on her placement. Had a tour round Saint Paul's cathedral ate dinner and looked round where sarah's living so that cool. Erm.....Went out with Britt today. I hadn't seen her since May so that was a fantastic catch up ;) Went in the brand new Lego shop which was fantastic! Bought Britt's birthday present and, get this, a lego figure keyring of HARRY POTTER :D :D :D :D Also met a couple of her friends that will be at her's next weekend. Going to be a little bit awkward, especially since most of them are lads and, well, if you do read this blog, we know who what "great" experience i have with lads. i.e none. at. all. what.so.ever.

Also one of the million people who have been let into Pottermore early. Proud Hufflepuff am I, with my Willow and Unicorn core eleven and a half inch wand :D Friend situation is sound as a pound. Relationship situation is as non-existant as unicorns themselves. Britt said today she was bored of being single, try it for sixteen years, love, and then come and complain to me... Photo's may be uploaded soon, as they are all on my phone at the moment :) Byee for now

New Start

Enrolled at Sixth Form today. Timetabled lessons start tomorrow. Slightly nervous but it should all be okay. I hope the lads do start mixing a bit more and not separating themselves from us. Otherwise I'll be a loner forever. Everyone in a relationship and I'm looking for my cats. haha :)

Happy Happy Happy

Bonjourno :D

So didn't quite get round to posting this on the 23rd. Sorry. Been busy. It was Results Day you see. Did pretty well though so it'll get me where i want to be next academic year! The Gramps and Uncle are over today so its all go go go. Plus a local foodie festival is on so we traversed down there today will wellies for a glass of 'Real Ale' and a bacon bap in my case :)
Holiday photo prints arrived so they're now on my wall. I'm feeling pretty happy at the moment. (hence title haha) No idea how long it going to last, probably until I'm back at sixth form.

Was going to post a post about my holiday, but that would involved boring the hell out of you, kind reader. If there is anyone reading this. haha. hey ho. Cheerful times :) Basically I went on holiday, was liberated from TV, Mobile and internet for ten days and I had a bloody fantastic time. Took many many photograph in a beautiful scenic place. The eye candy (both italian, Representative ;) and tourist) was pretty top notch too :D Heres a couple of my favourite photographs... Copyright Warsaw95

Waheyy :)

Waheyy! Practically just got back from my holidays and I've written about 15 pages of my novel. I had all these ideas buzzing round my head and, while away, set them in more of a concrete way. Got home and wrote and wrote and wrote. :) 205 A5 pages in and it's actually starting to become interesting and climatic. Which only took a hell of a lot of effort and many many hours worth of solemnly sitting at my computer :) But Ahh well, I suppose thats half the fun of writing. You can escape from the stresses and daily hassles of your normal life to the stresses and daily hassles of you characters lives. :D Hopefully a post tomorrow about the absolutely incredible holiday I've returned from :D 

Hello Again

I haven't written here in a couple of weeks. Saw the new Harry Potter film, three times already :D it is incredible. Going away soon so that should be good. Been watching a TV show called Sirens recently, it finished last night but was hilarious. One of the characters was played by Rhys Thomas. I have new found love for this man.

1. He is Gorgeous
2. He loves Queen
3. Looks good in uniform (haha) (Plays EMT Stuart in Sirens)
4. Actually Produced a documentary about Queen, Which I watched and loved :D

Plus, wish I looked like this beautiful woman, Amy Beth Hayes. She plays Sgt Maxine in Sirens. <3 Love for these people. ThatIsAll.

Proud Proud Proud :)

Novel word count. About half way through. Becky wants it to be a trilogy. I don't think that that is going to happen. Haha :) Just thought I'd share my happiness. Back up time now. Byeeee xxx

Little Update

Got a phone call yesterday after applying for a job in a new toy shop opening soon. Had the interview this morning and I think it went well. So fingers crossed please, I would like this job.

Went raspberry picking at the local farm the other day and while crossing the bridge I took at photo of the Motorway beneath.

Had a fiddle and a play around editing it and now, it looks like this...

Which, personally, I think looks pretty awesome. :)

Would really like to do a night shoot with long exposure on the camera though. So I'd get all the blurry movements from the cars and lights ;)

Thats all, Byee :)

Torchwood

Okay, Torchwood is the best show going. Like, ever. Spin-off to the re-vamped Doctor Who, its fourth series starts on Thursday. :D

So this is the original team of Torchwood Three, Cardiff. Left to right. Ianto Jones (deceased), Gwen Cooper, Captain Jack Harkness, Toshiko Sato (deceased), Own Harper (deceased and disintegrated). Brilliant show. Brilliant acting. Brilliant casting. The part of Gwen Cooper was written especially for Eve Myles. Plus, a I am little bit in love with John Barrowman a.k.a Captain Jack Harkness. Don't care if he's homosexual. A revolutionary show with practically all of the characters being bisexual. Like Doctor Who, but for adults.

Entering series 4 and it will still be incredible, despite just two of the original five remaining. :( All the rest got killed off. :'(

Now that writer, Russell T Davies has finished Doctor Who he focused all his attention on Torchwood and it is set across the pond in America and, funded by americans, has a budget of over £1 million per episode. Roll on the next ten weeks :D

We are ready for you Torchwood!

'Excuse me. Have you seen a Blowfish driving a sports car?'
'Bloody Torchwood.' :D

Harry Potter... The Phenomenon.

For my generation, Harry Potter, both the books and films, have been a key aspect of our childhood. Last night was the final films premiere. There were signing and photographs and speeches which made me tear up. J.K Rowling told global fans that "Whether you come back by page or big screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home."

Emma Watson broke down in tears, Rupert Grint told Emma and Dan that he loved them and couldn't describe what Jo Rowling had done for gingers. :) Daniel Radcliffe thanked his entire future career on Jo and the films. He truly is the perfect Harry.

The three of them at each Potter Premiere. It is incredible just how much they've progressed and changed. Harry Potter has been and will always be in my heart as it was my whole childhood. I will cry for the tragedy of the story and the sadness of the end of an era. There is no doubt in my heart that this film will truly be mind-blowing.

It is incredible how one author can bring such joy to millions of people and inspire an entire generation, and the rest, to read books, in this coming technological age. The films are all british, cast and crew, and were casted perfectly. I am so glad that the cast did not change throughout all eight incredible films. They will always belong to us, even if America have Harry Potter World. Which I will one day visit. :)

A loved story, even after the end, will always live on in our hearts. Harry Potter Forever! :D

Top Tip For The Day

Top Tip For The Day;

Just come back from the local farm that does PYO (pick your own) Strawberries. Great idea. so me and Mum have been munching away... Mmmmm delicious :) Okay, so they charge you buy the weight but when you get home you have to de-hull all the fruit you just picked. So my Top Tip is; De-hull your strawberries in the field so that when they charge you by weight, you're not paying for annoying green bits that your going to thrown away anyway. Therefore saving money that you can spend on more delicious strawberries. Sorted.

True Freedom and Insignificance

So I'm feeling a lot better since my last post when I was miserable and a bit depressed. Life has got a little better. Ran practically all over the parish the last two days with Sixth Form Induction at school and College. Plus my 'friend' Emma claims we have wronged her in unknown (to four of us) ways. She will not speak to us and she has not even looked at me despite my best and recognised efforts to strike up a conversation. About anything. But all that seems to fall into insignificance after reading Alice Pyne's blog. She truly is an inspiration at just a year younger than me and with terminal cancer. I recommend that you look her up, read her blog. Plus her Twitter account, Alice_Pyne... if anyone is reading... haha :)

True freedom has begun and the list of jobs from Dad is piling high, unfortunately not the proper job offers or even interviews though :( Spent the day at home today cleaning our living room which I am proud to say is not immaculate. Dinners nearly ready so that will be Me + Mum + Food + Glee = the usual Tuesday night... on a Wednesday... hehe :)

Still working on thoughts and names for my next blog which hopefully will contain reviews and my own personal opinions on people, films, books, etc... If you've got any suggestions for thing I should write about post me a cheeky comment. Bye for now :p

Relaxing

So after all the stresses of exams as well as general life I can finally relax as they are all over. :D Was so happy on Monday night. But since then I've been feeling a bit low. Which is a downer, haha. Mum reckons it is because I've been working so hard recently with all my revision and everything, so that now that I am allowed to relax and do what I want, I"m actually finding it difficult too. What a joke.

Shopping tomorrow with Becky for sixth form clothes (which is quite scary :s) Just going to buy black trousers and pretty tops if i can find a pair of black trousers that actually fit me. On Monday and Tuesday morning is the school sixth form induction and on the Tuesday afternoon is the college induction so I'm going to be running round the parish for a bit.

Dad has given me projects to do over the 11 weeks i am off for summer. My personal projects are; keeping up with my reading and art, continue with my novel writing and decorate my room. Dad wants me to read up on how to work ebay properly as well as household chores. Plus, both he and Mum want me to get my (crap) CV and Covering letter out so I can actually get myself a job too.

This is a beautiful sight to behold. Just a few of my favourite books, minus ones that are on loan to people at the moment. A service that I really should be charging for. ;) Here is a couple of the Harry Potter's , The Truth About Forever, Linger (Of the Shiver series), and some of the House of Night Books.

Mentioned a mini blog I might be starting a while ago. Well, its going to be a proper blog blog instead. Might publicise it a bit more too, rather than my normal 'let followers come to me' approach. :D So that'll hopefully be started soon now I have the time. just got to come up with a witty name....hmmmm......

Knackered after today, haven't even done that much either. Quite fancying a film, cosy PJ's and a cuppa. :) Night night.

Stressing

Seriously stressing over where I am going to go and what subjects I am going to take next year for my A-Levels. Stressing so much it is making my head hurt. There are loads of small issues to think of too which all amount into massive issues. Plus the pros and cons of each place to think of. Stay at school, or go to the local college. Ughhh decisions decisions. :(

Christian Louboutin

Ahh, the famous red soles of Louboutin's. These shoes are beautiful. Can't afford and wouldn't be able to walk in them... but look how pretty they are ;)

Right, back to revision and trying to cure the cold I manage to have in summer... :/

Human Nature

Okay, so I am the type of person who like hugs. Big squeezes. Especially off my friends and family. So heres the deal, M & D are away. On their jolly holidays for a week. They truly deserve it ;) but I am starting to believe in human nature an the importance of physical contact. Basically, I'm missing my Mum's hugs, her's are the best. Plus there is the huge campaign started a few years ago now for 'Free Hugs' (Look at those words long enough and they start to look wrong...) Hold up a sign or wear a t-shirt that declared Free Hugs and see how many people in the street hug you ;) Just being sentimental, I think.

If anyone is reading,  stay tuned for a mini blog inside this blog I'm thinking of launching :)

Lightbulbs

Like in cartoons where characters get cheeky lightbulbs above their head when they have an idea. My head is partially exploding with other novel ideas as well as short stories. I just don't have the time to write them, I hardly have time to write the one I am currently working on. Due to revision. :( Taken over my life, not that I have much of one of them either. Half Term soon, which is when my compulsory school days are over. And I am being shipped off to stay with the 'delightful' sister at university for two weeks. Might have to keep you posted about that one, if anyone is actually reading this thing....

Seeing Lucy R on Saturday and I have not seen her since before christmas. I need to buy a yearbook and get some photos printed too. Back to revision now...

The Royal Wedding

Today HRH Prince William married Miss Catherine Middleton, at West Minster Abbey. The happy couple are now the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge. :D Feeling very proud to be british today. Kate's engagement ring was Diana's, which I think was a nice touch.

There was the traditional balcony kiss at Buckingham Palace. x2 ;D Get in there Wills, Kate looked so beautiful in a satin, silk and handmade lace. The white and ivory dress was designed by Sarah Burton at Alexander McQueen. Burton worked very closely with McQueen and then dress was incredible. 

I adore the above picture. She looks simple yet elegant! Very Grace Kelly- esque.

Even Google had their celebrations. :D

Onto other news;
Hopefully the sister will return to university tomorrow, she had suddenly become very PMT ishh and likes to take it out on me. I have been called numerous names including weird, strange, creepy - (and not in jokey ways) I do not need it from my sister. :( She also likes to continuously Extract the Michael, Take the Mickey or, indeed, Rip the Fucking Piss out of me. Sometimes I can handle it, take it on the chin and have banter with her. But recently she has been so far up her own arse crack that she can't even see the light of day. So thats been pissing me off.

 Been doing lots of revision during this easter holiday. But back to school soon. Thats a bit of a downer, even more so than my life is already. So thats it really. Bye.

Day 5851

Here is an extract from my private blog, its how I've been feeling lately. Which is kind of depressing. This is day 5851 of my single life...


The single life is a lonely one. You walk about streets, with no one to hold hands with, and there are couples everywhere. They canoodle in corners and lovingly comfort one another. While you look on with an empty hand and no one to comfort your feelings. Do they no notice all the love we have to give? The single life is a depressing one. You read books and it describes characters kissing, and you have no idea how it feels because you have never felt that. They describe characters in love with 'the glow' and you cannot relate because you haven't felt that. You sit in Art and one of your friends tells you they got the implant, and you've never even been kissed, let alone have sex. You have no idea what a pair of strong male arms embracing you, protecting you feels like. Your female friends tells you she has given blow jobs to her boyfriend in bushes and you just want someone to love you and to be with. The single life is difficult. You see and hear and read so much and the outside world has no idea how you feel. They carry in in their perfect little worlds of love and happiness while you sit in your room, as lonely as an odd button that has fallen down the back of the chest of drawers. You imagine what it would be like to be loved and you can't. The single life is a painful one. Sometimes, it makes you feel as if a hole has been ripped through your chest and it is empty and cold. The single life is without hope. You become so far into the vicious circle that you think that if you ever did get out, no one would want you anyway due to lack of experience. So the circle continues. And before you know it you are fifty years old, pig ugly, and alone with just your cats for company. Even they will eat off half your face once your dead and not discovered for weeks because the single life means no social life on a weekend.

Inspiring Artwork

Just thought I'd post some picture that I have found that I really like...

Couple in the style of like Mother Nature

A Pretty Phoenix

Naughty Alice advert by Vivienne Westwood

Julian Beever, 3D Pavement Artwork

Hello Again

So I haven't written here in a while. The novel is coming on well and I have written about 150 A5 pages. It was my birthday this month, got a gorgeous Links Friendship bracelet and a bit of money which is useful for shopping and stuff. :) Need to write some thank you notes to all the family and some people that are relatives but I've never actually met them.

I think I need a little help...

Seriously considering the possibility that I have depression. Nothing seems to be going right, I am always exhausted and my mood is dangerously low at least twice daily. I really need something to lift me. At the moment, a lot of the time I feel as if I want to burst into tears. But at school I have this strong exterior thats all smiley even though I feel like I am breaking sometimes. And every time I do look marginally less cheerful that usual I get chorus' of people asking if I am okay.

Reasons to be depressed anyway;
-Exams are coming up and I am sure to fail them.
-Sometimes, I feel as if I am alone in the world.
-Nobody loves me, never have and probably never will.
-No self confidence.
-No self-esteem.
-Shit at art.

Oooo the joys of life, ey? Never having children. Would not want to put them through the pain of life.

Kenya

Being the lazy arse that I am, I need to do something about it! The other day we were told about a Camps International school trip to Kenya to transform the lives of communities there. By building schools and buildings! Fundraise three thousand, four hundred and eighty pounds to change so many lives over there. Extremely tempted to go. Lots of money though and would take a hell of a lot of effort to raise that much money! If i did it though, it would be so worth it! :D Just thought I'd let you know, if anyone is reading...

The Big C

Recently I have thought a lot about cancer. And how that if you had cancer, you would appreciate life's little things so much more. Like the feeling of spiky grass on bare feet. The sensation of going out in a down pour of rain with no coat on. Small things that we bar ourselves against by putting on coats and wearing shoes. Having cancer and knowing that you have just weeks, months or a few short years left of this beautiful planet would make you enjoy life. The way it was meant to be enjoyed. Thing like fresh lungfuls of air. Just a thought.

The Midas Touch

"He's got the Midas Touch, he touched too much. Hey Goldmember, Goldmember. He's got a golden pad, he's super bad. Hey Goldmember, Goldmember." - Beyonce as Foxy Cleopatra in the Austin powers film, Goldmember.

The Midas Touch. A phrase used when people have luck and 'everything they touch turns to gold. It originates from the Greek myth of King Midas. Midas was a greedy man and the God of wealth could see that, so he gave him one wish. Midas wished that everything he touched turned to gold and his wish was   granted. He ran about his palace turning everything to gold. He was pleased he would be so rich.

But what Midas did not count on was that when he tried to eat and drink, his food and wine, too, turned to gold. Eventually, he turned his beloved daughter into gold too. Midas begged the God to remove his wish and he was told to wash in a certain river. King Midas hurried there and bathed himself thoroughly. His wish was removed and he had learnt not to be greedy, but sadly he could not restore the life of his daughter. 

This Greek myth tells us to be grateful for what we have and not to be greedy. It tells us to be satisfied with what we have and thankful for our lives. 

Holiday :D

Holidays are fabulous things. Especially when you feel as if you need to sleep for about three weeks. Unfortunately this half term is just one week long. Then another seven week term before easter holidays and a couple of weeks before I leave school completely. Wow, not long at all really. Thats scary!  I need to work more on my novel and revise lots. I also need to do lots of plan work for y ten hour art exam. Hopefully tomorrow we will receive personalised exam timetables so i can start revising properly.

Beautiful Words

Christina Aguilera - Fighter


'Cause it makes me that much stronger 
Makes me work a little bit harder 
It makes me that much wiser 
So thanks for making me a fighter 
Made me learn a little bit faster 
Made my skin a little bit thicker 
Makes me that much smarter 
So thanks for making me a fighter


Kylie Minogue - Aphrodite


I'm fierce and I'm feeling mighty,                                                                 
I'm a golden girl, I'm an Aphrodite, alright,
Alright, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm fierce and I'm feeling mighty,
Don't you mess with me, you don't wanna fight me,
Alright. Alright, yeah, yeah, yeah


Britney Spears - Everytime

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

Evanescence - Bring Me To Life

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?

Leading you down into my core where i have become so numb

Without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold

Until you find it there and lead it back home

Life revolves around a small box.

Well not so small, 37 inches. My television is my world. And back on the box is; Silent Witness, Glee, Lark Rise to Candleford and Primeval. I also purchased and Heroes box set :D So relating to a previous post on my Private blog, 'Loveless&Lonely' i am indeed alone. Unloved. Untouched. And completely pathetic.

And ridiculously lusting after tall, dark, handsome strangers. Connor from Primeval, (Andrew-Lee Potts)  and Peter from Heroes. (Milo Ventimiglia)

I am the most pathetic person on the planet! and probably the Galaxy and Universe as well!

:D

Waheyy, life is a little better. On holidays until 4th and haven't posted in ages!
Friend situation is a lot better. Novel is coming along nicely, closing in on the 100 pages mark soon, hopefully! Good music in the iTunes and artwork progressing.

P.C Cast and her daughter, Kristen's next House of Night book is released on the 4th, so Becky and I are going to B'Head to get it from the Waterstones there! :D

I had a really good christmas and go my beautiful baby to write more of my slowly coming along but kinda rubbish book. Ahh well, i like the characters!
xxx