I think I need a little help...

Seriously considering the possibility that I have depression. Nothing seems to be going right, I am always exhausted and my mood is dangerously low at least twice daily. I really need something to lift me. At the moment, a lot of the time I feel as if I want to burst into tears. But at school I have this strong exterior thats all smiley even though I feel like I am breaking sometimes. And every time I do look marginally less cheerful that usual I get chorus' of people asking if I am okay.

Reasons to be depressed anyway;
-Exams are coming up and I am sure to fail them.
-Sometimes, I feel as if I am alone in the world.
-Nobody loves me, never have and probably never will.
-No self confidence.
-No self-esteem.
-Shit at art.

Oooo the joys of life, ey? Never having children. Would not want to put them through the pain of life.

Kenya

Being the lazy arse that I am, I need to do something about it! The other day we were told about a Camps International school trip to Kenya to transform the lives of communities there. By building schools and buildings! Fundraise three thousand, four hundred and eighty pounds to change so many lives over there. Extremely tempted to go. Lots of money though and would take a hell of a lot of effort to raise that much money! If i did it though, it would be so worth it! :D Just thought I'd let you know, if anyone is reading...

The Big C

Recently I have thought a lot about cancer. And how that if you had cancer, you would appreciate life's little things so much more. Like the feeling of spiky grass on bare feet. The sensation of going out in a down pour of rain with no coat on. Small things that we bar ourselves against by putting on coats and wearing shoes. Having cancer and knowing that you have just weeks, months or a few short years left of this beautiful planet would make you enjoy life. The way it was meant to be enjoyed. Thing like fresh lungfuls of air. Just a thought.

The Midas Touch

"He's got the Midas Touch, he touched too much. Hey Goldmember, Goldmember. He's got a golden pad, he's super bad. Hey Goldmember, Goldmember." - Beyonce as Foxy Cleopatra in the Austin powers film, Goldmember.

The Midas Touch. A phrase used when people have luck and 'everything they touch turns to gold. It originates from the Greek myth of King Midas. Midas was a greedy man and the God of wealth could see that, so he gave him one wish. Midas wished that everything he touched turned to gold and his wish was   granted. He ran about his palace turning everything to gold. He was pleased he would be so rich.

But what Midas did not count on was that when he tried to eat and drink, his food and wine, too, turned to gold. Eventually, he turned his beloved daughter into gold too. Midas begged the God to remove his wish and he was told to wash in a certain river. King Midas hurried there and bathed himself thoroughly. His wish was removed and he had learnt not to be greedy, but sadly he could not restore the life of his daughter. 

This Greek myth tells us to be grateful for what we have and not to be greedy. It tells us to be satisfied with what we have and thankful for our lives.